Candie’s Experience by DrJim

Candie’s Experience

My name is Candie, I am 5 foot 4, a brunette in great health with an averaqe figure, a little curvy I suppose. I am not flat chested and I am not too big. I am 33 years old and have been married for 12 years until just recently. I am quite domestic; there is nothing I love better than being home and puttering around the house with my husband and children. I have three wonderful children whom I love and could not live without, all of which I breastfed. Breastfeeding came easy for me, I always had lots of milk. I loved the experience of breastfeeding my babies, very fulfilling. In between breastfeeding my children I never dried up. My breasts seemed to always have a significant amount of milk in them, enough to squirt a little bit if I tried. My children are 6, 10 and 14 years old now. Sometimes when I would be working in the kitchen washing dishes or something my nipples would leak and I would get little spots on my blouse. Once my kids asked me about this and I showed them that I still had milk in my breasts by squirting a little bit. They were amazed of course and didn’t ask any more questions. Some women are like me and never dry up completely. Having milk in my breasts causes me to feel feminine and more complete as a woman.

I only recently became aware of the concept of an adult nursing relationship. Throughout my marriage neither my husband nor I had any thought about it. Our sex life was good and satisfying for me, the attentions that he did give to my breasts and I, in retrospect contributed to my lactation persistence. Unfortunately, I caught him being unfaithful and we are in the midst of a divorce. It is too bad because he doesn’t know what he has lost since he is loosing the children to some degree and me and the opportunities for lovin’ me. I learned about an adult nursing relationship about the time we started with the divorce process. I realized this is something that I want; I find the concept erotic, intimate and potentially fulfilling.

I had bad seasonal allergies this spring and went on daily antihistamines. Unfortunately it had the effect of almost drying up my breasts. At the same time I have been emotionally stressed with the divorce situation. Partially to cope with this and to focus positively on my future I decided to induce lactation. I am going to have a man who loves my breasts and will hopefully participate in an adult nursing relationship with me.

My Inducing experience

I decided to do a hormonal induction after reading the protocols on a website called AskLenore.com. I have a Medela electric double pump, which is a great brand. I began with a month of Yasmin birth control pills. To this I added 20mg. of Progesterone cream to my breasts daily. I did not do any other stimulation or take any other herbs or things. At the end of the month when the Yasmin ran out I went on Progesterone only cream 40mg. daily in different areas for one month. My period was heavy and longer which concerned me a bit and I considered having to take something else beside the Progesterone, but then it stopped. During the month of Progesterone only I did notice a little increase in my breast size and a little bit of tenderness, but that was about it. When that month ended I started on Domeperidome 20mg. 4 times a day and began pumping with my Medela pump.

About 6 days after starting the Domperidome and stopping the Progesterone my breasts began to swell and become very tender. The right breast responded faster and got bigger than the left initially by about ½ cup size. This caused me great concern that I might be permanently lopsided, but soon the other breast began to catch up. Pumping for me is a very soothing pleasurable experience and helps me to focus away from the negative feelings I am having with the divorce. Within about 7 days I was pumping about an ounce of milk each breast per session. With the pumping sessions I felt a good tingling letdown and my breasts became a bit engorged in feeling and appearance if I did not pump on time. Also 30 minutes of pumping did not seem to be completely emptying my breasts. It still felt as though there was more milk that needed to come out. I added Marmet hand massaging to help get the breasts emptied more completely, about 5 minutes in the middle and at the end of pumping.

One good thing that happened to me was that my next period was very light with no cramping, which is very unusual for me. This is the result of the breast stimulation and lactation, a definite plus. After about two weeks of this I got a bit lazy and started using a little hand pump that I have. The Medela pump is large and heavy and not portable. Since I have kids in the house and going places much, it is difficult to use it. The portable pump is much more convenient but, I have to admit, not nearly as effective as the heavy-duty electric pump. Using the portable pump quite a bit has caused me to not progress much past an ounce per breast per session.

Alas, I believe it will probably have to be this way for a little while as I know what I really need is two hungry lips to take my milk and ask me to make more. I know that what I want in a man is first a good relationship. He must love me for who I am, but this is a part of my femininity and sexuality. I would love for him to be physical with me some, chase me a bit and do some outdoor things with me, perhaps wrestle me down and explore me a bit. I am hoping he will discover and love experiencing my wet breasts. Inducing lactation has made my breasts bigger a little, which I actually like. I would love to have more milk, I would love to be full and need him to cuddle with me and suckle regularly. Sometime after I get to know him, if our relationship progresses to a certain point, I will have to tell him my secret desires. How he responds will be important to me.

That is my experience to date.

Candie's Update One Month Later….

It has been an additional month and I have made amazing progress, so here is an update for what has given me success. I had become a bit lazy and reverted to my hand pump. It was simply not stimulating me enough or emptying my breasts effectively. Resuming my electric pump about 6 times a day (7,11,2,5,8,11) did take a lot of my time but was very effective at stimulating my breasts. They became tender and areas seemed to swell and become firm like I had lumps in my breasts. I could tell I was not getting all the milk out. I thought perhaps some ducts were plugged or something. I started doing "Marmet" hand massage to help bring the milk left in the breast down. It was very effective, I would pump and get some milk then use Marmet and get a lot more. It turned out that I did not have plugged ducts, rather areas of my breasts were turned on but not emptying effectively. Gradually the soreness left while my milk output has increased to 2 to 4 oz. per breast per session. It varies quite a bit, in the morning after sleeping all night the amount is the greatest. Months ago I was wet nursing an infant that I cared for until I took antihistamines, which almost dried me up. I am now back to the point in my milk output where I was then which I wanted to happen as I love having milky breasts (I like being a Milkmaid). I am still taking Domeperidome. I have noticed that caffeine inhibits my milk output significantly so I have been going without the coffee mainly. I have been taking Fenugreek also, if I cut it back my milk decreases. Tight bras also inhibit me so I have been going without a bra around the house and wearing mainly a sport top under my shirt when I go out. Drinking plenty of water also affects my output quite a bit.

Now when I pump I follow with Marmet massage, which brings down quite a bit more milk. I then switch to the other side and repeat this. My breasts seem to be making milk at a low constant rate because it seems I can go back to the first breast and express more milk with massage and back and forth continually. It seems I could spend all day at this! I want to cut back to a more reasonable effort and not spend more than 30 minutes 4 times a day. I would like for my breasts to fill up in between and feel full with each session. I would like to achieve a steady output of about 4 oz. per breast per session. Then when I go out and socialize I will have this little pleasurable secret that I am a Milkmaid! It is an erotic little secret to me.

Candie’s experience gives insight into the feelings some women have toward the concept of adult nursing as well as the process that was successful for her.

DrJim

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